eternal pain
lyrics: Kotoe Kimura
music, arrangement: Satoshi Yaginuma
I should ignore my heart
whenever your beloved face comes to mind
my heart lost the key I planned to use to lock away
those thoughts keeping me in eternal pain
those days… seemed to pass by so casually
that calmness was unparalleled
but I don’t know if those days will ever return
I wonder why I loved
that precious time so much?
my insecurities troubled me,
made me unable to trust the love
you offered me
I was afraid of conflict
lost deep within darkness
never using my eyes
the cold rain was beginning to fall outside
washing away the warmth between us
it seems… I’ll stay in that place without a known exit
looking away, having no courage to face you
why did those precious words make me hesitate?
supposing I had stayed
without letting your hand go,
I’d have kept going forward with you
along this road we’d have traveled -
the road where a rain of tears now falls
that life is growing hazier
through the distant memories…
no matter how many times I try
to open my heart’s box without the key
I’m attacked by aches and pain
the rain dripping down the window
is telling me
the time when it becomes white snow
is approaching soon
I loved you so much
called for you over and over
and still continue
to echo your name
whether I understand now
what it means to love you,
even when I’m about to forget you
my heartache will hurt more…
please don’t find the key…
the pain goes on… woo…
.~*~.~*~.~*~.~*~.~*~.~*~.~*~.~*~.~*~.~*~.
sotto kokoro no oku ni shimatteta hazu no
itoshii anata no egao ga yomigaeru
omoi wo tojikome kakeru tsumori no kagi wo
nakushita kokoro wa ima mo itami tsudukeru
sou… nanigenaku sugite ita mainichi wa
konna ni kakegae ga naku
demo modori wa shinai to wa shirazu
taisetsu na toki wo naze sei ippai ni
aisa nakatta no darou?
fuan ni madowasarete
me wo mae no anata no
ai wo shinjirarezu ni
butsukaru koto osore
mayoikonda fukai yami
nani mo miyou to sezu ni
soto wa tsumetai ame ga furihajimete ita
futari no aida no netsu wo ubatte itta
sou… deguchi sae mitsukarazu ano basho ni todomaru
yuuki mo naku mukiau koto mo sezu hitomi sorashi
taisetsu na kotoba naze tameratta no darou?
moshi ano hi sono te wo
hanasazu ni ita no nara
kayoi nareta michi ni
ochiteku namida no ame
anata e to tsuduite ita
hibi ga mienaku natteku
tooi kioku no naka e…
zutto kagi wo nakushita mama no kokoro no kou wo
nando mo akete mite wa
itami ni osowareteru
mado wo tsutau ame wa
yagate masshiro na yuki ni
toki ga sugita koto wo
watashi ni tsutaete iru
anna ni ai shite ita
nando mo yobikaketeta
anata no sono namae
ima mo hibikitsudukeru
ima nara wakaru no ni
ai suru koto no imi wo
wasureru kurai nara
kokoro wa itamitsudukete…
kagi wa mitsukaranaide…
itamitsudukete… woo…
